THE UNTETHERED

 Relentlessly I have this bashing feeling of nostalgia

Of not being able to imagine as I used to
The question is... have we been educated as years pass by?
Or only learnt to learn but not to create

The innocence as a child when I see my son
Asks me hard enough to introspect the less explored me
While ..the heart seeks to write without thinking
My mind pulls back on the consequences

Pulling in all the strength which I seek to have
I wish those words come to me as they use to
But isn’t that how it is….that it should be?
Because your heart still silently smiles as a mute spectator

We often not value all the things we have
To talk straight from the heart has become a privilege
Because in the end it doesn't matter if you lived
All that is whole and complete falls apart without love

SHE SUNG

 

She sung her songs in silence

Amidst the beautiful Creation of herself

She flaunted the colors beyond imagination

Yet she never forgot to shelter others

For she never thought they were others but a part of her own self

LUNA

He hides.. 

He shines ..

He teaches us one truth of life..

That every darkness is followed by more brightness to come..

Every bright side is no forever..

But did we notice that.. this is only for the outside..

Inside he is at peace in solitude 😋

MAN THINKETH

Between the darkness of the skies
And the flabbergasting brightness of the stars.
He stands unshaken for he knows
He is in oneness with the one which loves and the one that hurts.


He in his deeper thinketh knows
That hard work and toil grasp greens and blues
But he learns 
Near is the beautiful scent of the blossoms for little lilies and lotuses.

The Ying stings in stealth foretelling
That no gloom is forever
The Yang bangs straight ahead
For it knows every bloom is followed by wither

That man ..! stands in the righteousness
Of his own actions good and bad
For the Karma hunts him down
Through the hardest rocks for gift or reprimand

- Vandana

Watercolor on Handmade paper
16 x 24 inches

SLUMBER

Delving deep into the myriads of creativity

Levitating against the gravity

Camouflaging the reality

Gliding beyond roofs of reminiscence

Oh! Unexplainably impeccable

How is this even conceivable?

I exist everywhere

At the brink of the empires

At the link of the memoirs

Nothing looks sensual

Not a thing looks usual

I feel love, I feel pain

I feel despair, I feel calm

So much to offer

So much to perceive

Much more to comprehend

I ponder, deep underneath

Chasing my body, reaching out to it

I scream in silence, catching up with my breath

Slowly I feel the touch of truth

Ah!!.. I witness the relief so rowth

-Vandana

THE UNSEEN ME

My heart skips its beat to hear you
To hear you through all the times known unknown
My eyes can feel the colors unseen

When I seek you for the perpetual wisdom
You create those nuances of situations shaking my logical reasoning
Awakening the deepest thoughts, I never knew I thought

Pondering in the betweens of consciousness and conscience
You and the world you created for me is rejoicing the new-found freedom
The freedom of thought, the freedom of possibilities
The gateway to the new dimensionless infinity

With the warmth of the welcoming
With the truth of the reality
I stand shaken in the upheaval of your intrusion
Oh sorry not intrusion, it’s my own introspection
For I realize there is no separate you
Its just the me, in fact it’s the you in me

Expanding through the shackles of life
Budging through the monastic twisters
Travelling through the roads teaching me
Meandering through the blissful milieu
Oh here I arrive, into the unseen me.

                                                                   -Vandana

Aruna Raaga :)

Its been already two more times of visit to RVM Foundation.But wanted to put down in my blog not to forget those moments...!

While we were waiting for a trigger to visit RVM,like somebody really heard us we got a birthday decoration order.Shahina and me took it up as it would give a service oriented money which was the approach we were heading towards. Several questions were raised like "Don't you feel it below status to take up such work?""Will your dad agree for such things?".But nothing really counted as the purpose was important and nothing is below dignity and more than anything the work was inline with our interest.Finally decorated the birthday hall with the help of some great hands ..it was all very fun filled :D Loved that day though we toiled a little.

Birthday hall we decorated

From then came the day we met our RVM friends :).It was quite an interesting day with waking up early,accompanied by uncle and Shahina,shopping and bargaining for fruits..I felt like I could start of a fruit selling business ;).Towards the end of our shopping came the RVM van with a volunteer.Here is when I met a phenomenal person !!Aruna......What a charming girl!While we introduced each other Aruna just smiled at us,but that communication was more than words.Since our shopping was done,it was time to carry and dump all fruit bags each one as heavy as 30 kgs.Both of us were looking for helpers while Aruna came and asked us to put the bag over her shoulders! For a moment we were shocked..but this was no big deal for her.With a warm smile she happily helped us.I am really amazed at her simplicity and cheerfulness .

Finally reached RVM ,distributed fruits and saw their faces glowing.It was nice to see them happy.But we couldn't stop laughing when many took the peels out and started throwing them all at once and were rejoicing at that shower not bothering about the guards screaming .They were totally in their own world.:).To wrap things up,we ate up there and Aruna bid us adieu by accompanying till the bus stop. I was very curious to know as to how she ended up there and started a conversation.Got to know that she was working in an IT firm ,but was inspired to do MSW( Master of Social Work ) and then joined there.That was really motivating.So much of humility!!Hats Off to those working in darkness to bring in brightness to others lives!! :) :)

Saaarryyy Madam :D

It was a bright day and the sunshine peeped in crossing many snags and finally fell on my eyes only to wake me up afresh when I was still snuggling on my bed.Oh Shit!! Its already 7 30 a.m. Why am I so lazy (all the time!!).That's okie,after all what more can give the pleasure of a sound sleep.That's life ;).Finally, picking up some more inspiration..actually...not inspiration, but a complete insistence of the intellect on my lazying mind, I wake up and hurry to find a bathroom.For those of you who are wondering as to how many bathrooms I have, I am staying in a PG (paying guest) as my house is quite far from college...By the way, quite far means..a travel from my house to my college would cover almost the diameter of Bangalore. :D.

Oh yeah!! coming back to my getting ready to college, I whisk into the kitchen and pack my box though I know its very late to class as that's my priority.When I say class, I remember its networks class..Sangeeeeeetha ♬ ♬ ma'am class.The most sleep causing class @least to me(no offences please) and at the sametime would lose attendance for even being 2-3 mins late. For now the only hope I have is Vani is also late today.I am not happy that she's late,but its actually a 'not just me' kinda feeling that calms down your tension a bit.Here I go,locking my room at Vani's one big shout of 'Come fast yaaa' rushing downstairs and finally race by to reach bus stop only to realize its EXTREMELY late and we have no hopes of any buses.With no next question both of us in unissance look out for auto.

We see one guy leaning on an auto presumably the auto driver.He stares at us like those comedians in Kannada movies with a creepy look.Oh we don't have time to get irritated now.Just hurry up and call him I thought.My thought now is perfectly in sync with Vani's expressions even without uttering a single word.Finally we went there and asked him "PESIT?" and get into the auto bearing the grin of that monkey faced fella apparently.He is now sitting in a posture which could well be depicted only when I compare it with a slight Trikonasana.I am wondering why he's sitting like this and infer it was to balance the auto through my all possible optimism.

He started the auto.So did my heart start thumping witnessing the surge in speed he takes.Me and Vani are staring at each other not that we wont reach class on time, but that, we may directly reach heaven at once.He is driving crazily I say!!Both of us are still dumbstruck and exchanging looks as to who should tell him to slow down.But within my thought process is transfiguring into action, everything has already happened.He hit a bike slightly and took an extreme left turn and the whole auto toppled!!!

Sample pic of the position of our Auto :D

Now goes the best part.The auto is resting totally on its side and so is Vani still intact in her position as when the Auto was upright.And me I am exactly perpendicular standing in the gap in front of the back seat and stare down in complete anger.I wonder how I was angry instead of being afraid.I also wonderfully wonder as to how I came to that position without being hurt :D.....Now I see down!! The auto is on the auto driver who has fallen down and is facing me.I asked him not realizing my position nor his position " What have you done???" in kannada.And to my disbelief, the guy is smiling at me (dont forget the entire auto in which Vani is there has fallen on him) and says "Saaarrrry Madam".

Oh god!! What all happened in minutes.Finally we get back to pg to get some rest and bunked that class :D :D.

Thoughtful thoughts that crossed my mind...!! :P

"ಸ್ನೇಹಲೋಕ" rediscovered :P

Its just an awesome feeling to find an old poem you wrote you don't even remember you wrote :P. Found this today morning!! :D. Could only fetch light meaning.Don't know what I thought when I wrote it ;).It is dated 7th May 2007!!!!

ತಂಗಾಳಿಯ ಸುಖಸ್ಪರ್ಶವು ತಾಕಿದೊಡನೆ ಮನವು
ತಣ್ಣನೆ ತಂಪಾದವು ಕೂಪತಾಪಗಳು
ಅನಿಸಿತು ಮನಸಿಗೆ ಒಂದೊಂದು ಅಣುವಿನಲಿ ಸ್ನೇಹದಾ ಬಿಂದುಗಳು
ನಿಂತು ನೋಡಲು ಏನೂ ಕಾಣಿಸದು

ಬಯಕೆ ಬಚ್ಚಿಟ್ಟೆ
ಹೇಳಲು ಮೌನ ಮಾತನ್ನೆಳೆಯಿತು
ಯತ್ತನೋದಿರತ್ತ ಅದರದ್ದೇ ಛಾಯೆ
ಬರೀ ಛಾಯೆಯೇ ಇದೆಂಥ ಮಾಯೆ

ರೆಪ್ಪೆ ಬಡಿತವು ನಿಂತು , ಎದೆಬದಿತವೀರಿತು
ಇದೆಂಥ ಸ್ನೇಹದಾ ಪ್ರಪಂಚ ನಾನಿನ್ದಿಲಿದದ್ದು
ಏನಿದ್ದರೇನು ,ನನ್ನ ದೇವ ಕಾಯುವನು 

ಬಂದು ಬಾಂದಳದ ಇರುಳನ್ನೆಸೆದು
ಅಂದು ಅದು ಪ್ರೀತಿ ತುಂಬಿ ತುಳುಕಿದ ಲೋಕವಾಇತು
ಕೊರಳಲ್ಲಿ ಸ್ವರವ ಧ್ವನಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಇಂಚರವ ಹೊರಹೊಮ್ಮಿತು

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